12.03.2013

Fully cramping in the middle of the night. Thank god you’re not here. Totally rolling in bed + whining + curled like a ball + just wanna be left alone. Must have looked horrible, bringing unglam to the next level. Talked on the phone while you were driving to gym. Really like little chats like that during the day But why you refuse to bring me on “dates” and claim that we can just “hang out”? It’s like I’m willing to give this a shot but why are you so full of reservation? This is so frustrating. I don’t see why we should deny this mutual attraction a chance. I know it’s MUTUAL. Lets do this shall we? I don’t see how it’ll be unfair to me in any way because I’m also uncertain about my future. So why do we have to add on to the uncertainties? I just wanna be there for you whenever you need a listening ear, whenever you’re frustrated about your day, whenever you’re lost in life. And being there doesn’t necessarily mean physically together right? And this would mean we’ll treasure each other more each time we see each other cause that’ll be like falling in love again and again and againnnnn. I wish I can let you know how I really feel. I really wanna work this out with you cause this is really the first time I see a future with anyone. Anyway I really appreciate your thought of letting me use your card when I’m in oz ^^ And you sent me your photo even when I didn’t ask! Yayyyyy! Me: “so are you crazy over me huh huh huh?!” You: “yes yes like. A little. Everytime I see your pic gets me a little crazy. ” In a good way I hope? Kinda tried to talk about us trying to work this out and… I think it didn’t come through quite well. I wish I knew what to do -Joyce