10.03.2013

Day 2 back from Samui, still missing you crazy. Did lots of thinking the whole time – journey to school, in school, back from school, at home… Will this work? Will this bring us somewhere? I don’t know. All I know is I don’t want to give up. Because I can see a future with you. I’ve never felt this way before. All those boys I’ve dated, all I felt was love, but I never saw how we could have a future. But it’s different for you. I can see myself waiting for you to end work, massaging your aching shoulders, you telling me about irritating people you meet at work, me fastening your tie before you go to work, you asking me to go to bed when I’m hooked onto my laptop, me whining to you about difficult clients I meet, and the list can go on and on. This is going to be very hard, but I’m sure we can work something out. Don’t give up on Us, please? I read up on “How to sustain a long distance relationship”, I think we can work this. It’ll be full of love and excitement and a lot of looking forward to many things and counting down. Let’s start of by counting down to me going over to you in July. I was so close to cancelling Morocco, just to spend more time with you + go over earlier. But no, cannot be clingy + suffocate you. We must grow independently but grow together. But I can’t wait to fall back into your arms already. That’s something really worth looking forward to. 4 days to your birthday, I wish I can spend it with you. What’s your birthday wish? Secretly happy you showed me on FaceTime to your bro. *oops shysssss* And got a total shock when Jade stomped into the room halfway and took away 2 minutes of my FaceTime time with you LOL jokesssss. But why didn’t you say you love me when I asked you to? -Joyce