31.01.2013

You were being totally cute today. Say i have many photos on fb but never send you make you have to suffer so long. :/ i like that you enjoy looking at my photos! i can send you a all the time if you let me hahahaha. And everyday when we talk about i just wanna roll around in bed, you just want to plant kisses on me… just makes me feel like everything’s gonna so perfect. We’ll work this out and it’s gonna be amazing <3 -Joyce

30.01.2013

viber totally screwing up today couldn’t even have a proper chat before class. but at least i got audio note yayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy! <3 -Joyce

29.01.2013

“that week is my birthday week so need to spend it with someone special right. you’re the most special.” – i want to be special just for you. Fully googling about air tickets today. Can hardly contain my excitement omggggg. Baby, I’m fully looking forward to the day we can really spend quality time together xo. -Joyce

28.01.2013

Baby you’re so cute why would you worry that i would leave you just because you can’t cook as well as ken?! hahahha don’t cook too well i don’t want to grow fatttttt :/ But i totally cannot wait for the day you cook for me oops. -Joyce

27.01.2013

“Go diving, go snowboarding, go swimming, go dancing, go make love” – oops totally shy but totally looking forwardddd. I miss you baby. -Joyce

26.01.2013

Today you told me your mom talking to you about finding a girlfriend and you told her you wanna find someone 4-5 years younger but she thinks that’s too immature and you said “She has no idea i’ve found the perfect person – you. I wanna show her how great you are. Don’t stress ok slowly” – I wish that’s what you really think. I want to be someone you can be proud of. someone you wanna show your family. And you said you wanna dive with whale sharks. I like that. I wanna tick off things on your “want list” with you. one by one yay! Me: “I wish I can do something to help you :/ ” You: “You just want for me to come back and love you that’s all you need to prepare yourself ” I don’t need to prepare. I think I’m fully ready to be loved by you. “One day you get sick of audio notes and FaceTime, when you need someone beside you when you’re down, and someone to celebrate with you when you’re happy, and i can’t do that.” – I admit it’s still too early to tell whether i’ll get sick of them (or maybe you’ll get sick of seeing me on the screen :/), but i just wanna you to know that everyday i long for your audio notes/ photos/ texts because they keep me going. “care for you x100 a lot. but i really can’t do anything for you right now. even the simplest thing of being right next to you also cannot. how to be a good lover tell me. so i feel bad. and worse if you start pinning hopes on me. but i’ll take care of you 200% when i’m with you definitely. i’m just reminding you that it’s not all perfect with me that’s all. as you grow older you’ll know what you want and you’ll start to realise this might be a waste of time. and this moment you’re the only time i want to spend with.” – baby, why can’t you place some trust in us? Totally looking forward to Koh Samui anyway xoxoxox -Joyce

25.01.2013

“Please I told you I like you sleeping all the time right. Especially when you’re staying with me then I can gently pounce hug you while you’re asleep and squeeze in next to you.” – YES PLEASE. Sorry baby you totally had to stay up will 2am you time just to wait for me to end school + reach home to FaceTime. I wish I’m done with school now now now LIKE NOW -Joyce

24.01.2013

Today’s gonna be a really busy day for me, cause of all the house moving. Sent you a video to let you know how much i miss youuuuu *oops shy* “You’re so beautiful in the video babe” – yes baby that’s all i need to hear from you. “You’re amazing. You’re beautiful to me. You’ll be even more beautiful when I sleep next to you.” – I’m totally looking forward to it *oops shy x2* Thanks for panicking with me over the scratched floor. Hope my mom doesn’t kill me! :S “I wish I’m there with you. And calm down together with you. And make sure everything will be alright with you.” you know how much i want it too? -Joyce

23.01.2013

I like how you want to fulfill my wanderlust with me. Can’t wait for the one small step to Thailand in March, one happy step to Oz in July, and many steps together in the near future. And when you talk about us going for (potential) road trips when I go over in July jsut makes me sooooo excited omggggg. “Please you just stay at home wait for the prince to come back to love you.” I’d very much like that too *oops* And you’re thinking of moving into your apartment instead of renting it out because i’ll be there for 1.5months… makes me feel bad. you think it’s really a wise choice? like i don’t want to be a burden to you and make you make bad decisions because of me Whe you keep saying you hate long distance, it makes me wonder if you’re hinting me that you don’t want to continue with this whole thing with me anymore. I wish I can do something because I crave intimacy too. But I think we can work the distance out. “I don’t want to break your heart. It’s just that for the last month you’ve been my everything everyday. It could be a now thing or it could go on for very long we’ll never know. And then I think you’re quite special so I want to be close to you no matter what. Maybe neing selfish for doing this. And you might not want me anyway halo you’ve only seen me for 4 days. So it’s also good if we can spend some quality time together see how’s the feeling. And if we’re meant to be together nothing can stop us.” It’s kinda sad to hear this. like… as much as i’m uncertain i feel like i want to be with you. since this is a mutual feeling that we have, maybe we can work something out? I really want to work something out, but i need you to be in this with me. AND I ACCIDENTALLY DELETED ALL OUR MEDIA EXCHANGED OMG I FEEL SUICIDAL BABYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY. -Joyce

22.01.2013

Thought you overslept today cause when I texted you at… 8am your time I got no reply :O and I cant believe you actually said I cannot kiss baby Darius! “I’m very possessive one you don’t know meh. I get jealous when you kiss other people whatttttt.” And I can’t believe I secretly like that… Rather than you don’t give two hoots about me giving kisses righttttt! LOL. You: “If I’m in sg right now and say meet dinner you’ll come right.” Me: “Noooo” You: “Okay then I’ll go find you at your new house. Then I’ll press the bell and say hi auntie uncle I’m here to pick your beautiful daughter Joyce for dinner.” That sounds absolutely hot please come pick me for dinner nowwwwwww. And I’m really sorry for asking about your dad when we were on the phone last night… What business is it of mine seriously. Urgh hate myself for my stupidity omggggg. “You have to plan coming here for 2 months soon. Let me take care of you. After work I’ll bring you for dinners. And movies. And cuddles. Weekends I’ll bring you away.” OMG HOT x2 You: “I L U baby” Me: “What’s with your random letters” You: “Huh don’t know leh just come out uncontrollably from the heart. Not sure what it’s trying to say.” I wish you’ll tell me that every day. When you’re in control of yourself that is haha. “You cannot angry. Not as beautiful as when you smile. Cause when you’re angry your cheeks will go downwards. When you smile sweet cheeks go up and high.” <3 -Joyce

21.01.2013

Sent you an audio note to chase your monday blues awayyyy. hope it helped! and you’re totally high about march huhhhh? “I can’t wait for march! then we can have our own paradise ” Totally making me excited tooooo. Me: “Hmmm sounds nice. But that’ll depend on whether you want to bring me along to your paradise.” You: “I bring you everywhere with me. Depends on whether you let me to.” you don’t know how much i’m longing to be with you already. -Joyce

20.01.2013

So today you’re doing your job search againnn. Sigh pie what can I do to help? And I was at my new place doing cleaning and told you that I’ll be sharing a room with my sis and you started to say you’re shy cause when we FaceTime she’ll be able to see you but hello you’re mine so only I can see okay! And you went on to say “you’re mine and only mine”. I like that idea ^^ You: “You just need to marry a rich husband and emjoy life. You can be a mommy and a wife. That’s two hard jobs already. That’s why I’m trying to be rich. Then let you find me.” Me: “Is that a proposal?” You: “Not romantic and rich enough to be a proposal. Date in March first.” OMG I CAN TOTALLY TELEPORT TO MARCH ALREADY. LET’S GO DATINGGGGG! Can’t wait for you to check air tickets and materialise our trip! Me: “What if i don’t do the oz Bar?” You: “That’s ok. Then whichever country you go. Then I’ll go look for you when I’m on leave.” Hmmmmm. Will you really do this? Just for me? “Yeah it’s kinda adult decision. And I’m not really ready myself too. Like if you really come here I need to be absolute sure I can take care of you. Provide you with accomodation and care etccc. And answer to your parents.” “You can rent my apartment I’ve got spare space in my bed.” Do you have spare space in your heart… too? -Joyce

19.01.2013

You totally exposed me going to your place the first time we went out *oops* actually I also don’t know why I agreed to that… I just didn’t feel like going home yetttt. It’s like time spent with you was so comfortable and perfect I just didn’t want to lose the moment. Who knows whether we’ll have the chance again right? But I’m pretty certain we’ll have the chance. Many chances in fact. Totally like spending time with you, just lying in bed doing nothing, enjoying your cuddles and hear you snore. Me: “Will you bring me wherever you go?” You: “Please I’ll even bring you to bed to sleep with me.” Why am I secretly happy? *oops shyssssss* Today you had a bloated tummy, prolly from the prata you had. I wish I were there to rub your tummy and take care of you. And till that day comes, you must take gooddddd care of yourself okay? If not I’ll feel super helpless + depressed you know! “Hot as in you rubbing it (we were talking about oil here) all on my body feeling you touch me… That’s hot.” – oops shy but yes, I wanna feel your body. That’s hot x2. -Joyce

18.01.2013

Was browsing through the net letting my wanderlust run wild and told you I wanna ride on a cheetah and you said ride on you instead *oops* “Will I even let you get hurt tiny bit” – Don’t hurt me okay? Even if you have to… Just let me knowwwwww :/ And you said life would be much simpler if you can just be in sg working with me by your side and you’ll know everything’s gonna be alright. I like that you wish I’m by your side, but it kinda sting a that you sound so sad It’s amazing how I’ve totally let you into my heart, and how important you’re becoming to me. I don’t know where this is going to lead, but I just wanna give it a shot. I wish I had the courage to tell you this. Don’t lose hope, don’t let me go, okay? And it’s the first time I dreamt of you! Like I really saw you in my dream. I was at your bank waiting for you to knock off when a short-haired female manager came to scold you so you told me to wait outside the bank. I think it was an arcade outside with all the kiddy rides stuff. Then I woke up -.- I really look forward to the day I wait for you to end work and we can spend the evening together ^^ “I’m always with guys cuz the only girl I want to be with is you.” – I’LL HOLD ON TO YOUR WORDS WOOHOOOOOO! Me: “Later your friends see you keep texting me they also wanna text me how?” You: “No not allowed you’re only mine” <3 -Joyce

17.01.2013

Me: “I’m such a nice sister please” You: “I know you’re the best. You’re such a nice lover too. To meeeeee” *secretly happy you called me your lover oops* And you said big boy also need his girl to choose his clothes for him. I long for the day I pick clothes for you from your wardrobe and see you put them on and look so cute in them *shysssss* And you saying you miss me totally flies me to the mooooonnnnn. Why do you keep talking about taking shower together? Hmmmm… Sounds totally hot though *oops shy again* -Joyce

16.01.2013

“my sleeping angel” – i like that told you a malay guy told me he likes me and you said “you cannot like others ok you already like me lol” – i fully like that. “with you i think i can do anything. i can survive anything. in my movie you’re my lover that’s why you know my secret.” – turn this movie into reality? -Joyce

15.01.2013

Today you got put to another department. Not sure how this works, but sounds like a downgrade to me :/ Wish I could be there for you So I sent you a video to cheer you on. Go watch it when the going gets tough okay? “omg that’s the most beautiful thing. you know watching it my heart like skip many few beats gosh how beautiful you are. and you’re amazing baby. i love you. i’m still stunned. no one would do that for me. stun at your maturity and your encouragement and your belief and your love for me. takes a lot of care and concern for you to do this. for someone. i feel special. ” all it matters is you appreciate it. you’re going dinner with friends tomorrow and said you’ll bring me to meet them when i’m there. i like how you want me to meet your friends. -Joyce

14.01.2013

Fully having period cramps urgh. But “I want to hold you and love you” just makes everything a thousand times better. Today you got into trouble with a manager, the one who wasn’t invited to farewell, and have to stay behind to write a diary note. I wish I could do or say something to maake things better for you. And you told me how lucky you feel to have me with you. Imagine if I hadn’t waited that day… We would still be strangers. I want to remember how lucky we are now. So when days get rough we can think back and be reminded of this and move on even stronger. Promise you’ll remember too? “Your mouth so small so cute I want to kiss it gently. And feed you fat fat yeahhhh.” -Joyce

13.01.2013

You want me to embrace my time as a kid, and you think I’m a mature and responsible kid which you think is amazing. “I’ll teach you about life but I need you to be in it with me cuz I’ll definitely need your help,” I wish I could tell you that I wanna be in your life too and help you in every way I can ever help. Today was fully spent on faceTime + Viber + Whatsapp. I like feeling connected to you. Makes me feel nearer to you. Monday again tomorrow, you’re depressed again and I’m helpless again. -Joyce

12.01.2013

Called you a sleeping king cause you’re fully in bed at 4pm your time OMG



See your cute face? ^^ And you made me the queen and I insisted I was princess then you said you’ll be prince then because king cannot marry princess.

Me: “Is this a proposal?”
You: “Yes this is a possible proposal for in the future.”
oops shysss.

“You’re very precious to them I know and they will want a very good guy so i’ve to pass. Be more responsible and independent and husband material and financially secure etc.”
But you never knew you are more than perfect for me.

Then you said you think your mom will like me. I wishhhhhhhhhh oops.

-Joyce

11.01.2013

You had a bad day at work today, and said you need to quit before you get fired. Made me worry a little. The best I could offer was a Viber call. I wish I knew a little more about the working world thing to offer you more. I wish I can make you feel better. Then you said I’m only turning 22 and I’ll keep getting more and more beautiful and you’re planning to keep me around you for a very long time, so you ahve to get more and more handsome too. I like it that you plan to keep me around you, cause that’s exactly what I want. I think I know what I want now. To stay around you. So we viber call all the way from when you were in your city apartment till you got back to your mom’s place, and me ending lessons all the way home. Then fully got ready for FaceTime date. Such precious little dates -Joyce

10.01.2013

Today is like the third time (I think) I woke up at 0430am to wish you good day at work, my tiny attempt to make your day better. I feel like I can do this forever. Even better if I can just wake up next to you and wish you good day. *shysss* And you said we have to set new rules because you don’t want me to do this so I can only wake up to text you on monday mornings. I like how you’re caring for me, but I also want to do something for you in every little way I can. “Please I want you so much cause you’re the hottest and we’ll make the best babies” – We were talking about whose baby photos were cuter by the way LOL. Sometimes I wonder why are you so corny (but I still like it -.-) “If I love you whatever you turn into I’ll still love you halo” – So I asked you whether you love me cause I don’t want to wait till Thailand and your answer was “Yes I want to love you”. That got me thinking : what is “want to love you”? So today we went on and on getting high about a Thailand trip that we don’t even know for sure that will come true. Let’s keep our fingers crossed and hope for the best. “I’ve never known a girl who goes diving lie a hobby who drives a car like me who drops popcorn all over who eats burger like -.-”‘ who is so black who is so mature at your age who is so independent and so amazing and studying law and wakes up at 430 to text her lover and so busy that she’s not replying and so beautiful and so sexy and so easy to love xx” You know what? I’ve never had anyone say such beautiful words to me. What have I been doing going out with those guys, wasting my youth away -.- Why didn’t we meet earlier, things would have been perfect to the T. -Joyce

09.01.2013

You sent me a photo when you were in the salon. I like how we’re trying to include each other in our daily lives And today you said something about you being half singaporean and I said you’re nowhere singaporean and you said add me will become half and our kids will become mixed. That totally caught me by surprise because 1) no one ever talked to me about kids, 2) I never liked the idea of having kids. But why did I secretly feel happy? Once a guy said he wanna marry me one day and I totally did that roll eye face and said let’s think about that ten years later if we still can stand the sight of each other. That’s almost as far as things went. Hmmmm you must be really special. You said you showed my pic to your friends and they said I’m hot and you said of course with the ^^ eyebrow face. Don’t know how true this is, maybe nowhere near the truth. But I like the idea that you showed me to your friends *oops shyyyyy* And you said I’m your future gf. That made me look forward to the future a lot. Like I really wanna fast forward to the future right now. -Joyce

08.01.2013

“I don’t want to compare you with anything. You’re mine, ALL MINE.” Remember you said this! All I want is to bask in this moment. Without a worry. -Joyce

07.01.2013

Woke up at 4:30am to text you before you got to work. This is the least I can do to shoo your monday blues away. “And I won’t bear to do you wrong cuz you’re my precious. I know you’re all independent and always eew me but I really want to protect you.” I get a little scared when someone tells me they’ll never do me wrong cause it always turns out to be a lie. I wish I can break that thought cause it keeps crushing me. And today we set resolutions for each other:- 1) Stop procrastinating 2) Stop bullying me 3) Love me ****** 1) To sleep early 2) To love Andrew more 3) To stay beautiful Must work towards them, okay? -Joyce

06.01.2013

Me: “When I stone it’s only you in my mind” You: “That answer made me miss you a little more. Cause the heart’s feeling it.” Me: “Woah give so true answer only miss me a LITTLE more?!” You: “Halo my level of missing you is so full it’s nearly overflowing. And now a little more is driving me crazy and torturing me baddd.” You know I never liked cheesy lines, and I always do that roll-eye expression whenever someone tries to use it on me. But somehow yours have a special punch in them, and I like it. This may sound like a “oh whatever girl fallin gin love kinda talk” but hello, I think I’m mature enough to know what I’m feeling. “Oh God I really wish you were here. You make my heart beat weird sometimes makes me feel i’m alive. I was pretty dead until I met you.” I like that I make you feel alive. I hope to keep this thing we have alive too. You said you’re a little depressed cause it’s back to work Monday tomorrow. I wish I can be there to shoo those blues away. You: “I’m always cute” Me: “I know, cause you’re my love” You: “Can’t wait to love you when I see you” And I posted a Venice photo on FB and you said one day we’ll go Venice. I like how you pay attention to little details like this. And you said “You’re my everything” because I exposed you stalking me *oops* I think I really want to be your everything. Nothing else really matters actually. -Joyce

05.01.2013

Today I went for brunch with Jade and Ken and was so afraid that they’re gonna set me up with another match making session again lollll. But no such surprise so I had you as my lunch date <3 “I look at all my friends but still pick you… You must have some place in my heart.” And I really want to stay in that little place. And I sent you the first audio note today! *shyssssss* And we spent bulk of our time saying sorry because I have to keep you awake till so late to FaceTime with me and you keep rebutting saying you’ll be more sorry because you cannot stay up for the other 5 work days. This can go on foreverrrrr. But I really feel bad keeping you awake :/ -Joyce

04.01.2013

I like that you text me at every opportunity you have at work, especially when you go toilet/ during lunch. Cause I know you’re thinking of me even at work ^^ Talked about me doing my Bar in HK/ NSW and told you how I hate growing up and you said I can choose not to grow up cause you’ll take care of me. I liked that *oops* and you said if i wanna study forever then study cause you’ll support me that’s like oops x2. You: “I’m constantly checking my phone for you, so you get special notification from my heart x” Me: “Each time you say something sweet I miss you a little moreeee” And today we had our first FaceTime date. -Joyce

03.01.2013

Today is the first time we really talked about “meeting half-way”. Not sure how this is gonna work out cause I’ve seriously never tried it before. But you said “any where is fine as long as i get to hug you again” and it cleared all my doubts. We just have to work together to make things work. -Joyce

02.01.2013

First time talking on Viber, totally shyyyyy. Felt kinda bad you woke up from sleep to call me when I end class at 10pm. That’s like !am for you and you need to wake up in few coupla hours for work :O oh no. You talked about it’s okay for me to go on dates with other guys, cause you don’t wanna hold me back. I didn’t like that idea. I want to be held back by you and belong to you only. “I don’t want to trap me but I really want you.” – Please continue to want me cause that would make me really happy. That’s all that matters. “Cuz you’re like my everything. My passion my desire my girl my food.” – Keep it that way, I really like that idea. “I want to keep you warm. We’ll get there for sure, as long as we work together.” – PLEASE KEEP YOUR WORD CAUSE I’LL WORK REALLY HARD TO GET THERE. You: “I love you too mice” (hello grammar error only one me so it’s mouse but i’ll forgive you LOL) Me: “Okay serious if someone comes along you must tell me k” You: “No I don’t want to find someone else. I only want to be with you. ” I would very much love that too. -Joyce

01.01.2013

"Happy new year dearest. Have an amazing night and go crazy Wish you’re here with me. Good night xx” You know what I wish more? I wish a new year kiss with you. You: “Yeah but I want to accompany you till you go to sleep. so the time difference doesn’t help.” Me: “That’s really sweet but let’s be thankful it’s only 3hours not like 12 horrid hours or something. We’ll work around it.” You: “Yup we will.” Always remember this, will you? Me: “Will you ever lie to me?” You: “I don’t think I’ll ever have to lie to you. As long as you remain my precious I want you to know everything.” I really hope to be your one and only precious, cause that’ll be something really precious to me xo. Happy new year baby, I wish for something amazing with you… I think? -Joyce