23.01.2013

I like how you want to fulfill my wanderlust with me. Can’t wait for the one small step to Thailand in March, one happy step to Oz in July, and many steps together in the near future. And when you talk about us going for (potential) road trips when I go over in July jsut makes me sooooo excited omggggg. “Please you just stay at home wait for the prince to come back to love you.” I’d very much like that too *oops* And you’re thinking of moving into your apartment instead of renting it out because i’ll be there for 1.5months… makes me feel bad. you think it’s really a wise choice? like i don’t want to be a burden to you and make you make bad decisions because of me Whe you keep saying you hate long distance, it makes me wonder if you’re hinting me that you don’t want to continue with this whole thing with me anymore. I wish I can do something because I crave intimacy too. But I think we can work the distance out. “I don’t want to break your heart. It’s just that for the last month you’ve been my everything everyday. It could be a now thing or it could go on for very long we’ll never know. And then I think you’re quite special so I want to be close to you no matter what. Maybe neing selfish for doing this. And you might not want me anyway halo you’ve only seen me for 4 days. So it’s also good if we can spend some quality time together see how’s the feeling. And if we’re meant to be together nothing can stop us.” It’s kinda sad to hear this. like… as much as i’m uncertain i feel like i want to be with you. since this is a mutual feeling that we have, maybe we can work something out? I really want to work something out, but i need you to be in this with me. AND I ACCIDENTALLY DELETED ALL OUR MEDIA EXCHANGED OMG I FEEL SUICIDAL BABYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY. -Joyce